Wednesday, October 11, 2006
if you could give me another chance i promise i wouldn't have asked you to stay. i would have just kept it in silently. that was the way you wanted it wasn't it? i just need that chance. i'd do anything to hear your voice again. sometimes i wonder if you're even there. were my messages read? or did you just delete them? hows your life over there? is it going well? who's on your list now? are you still supporting your favourite soccer team? are you still into polo tees? do you still draw like you used to? i remember the many pictures you drew all over my book. the way while i was studying it helped pushed me on. i still remember how you used to hug me whenever everything crumbled. you used to say everything would be alright. is it the same now? im sorry for all the things i just couldn't do. you just happened to cross my mind when the song was playing and now im stuck on you. do you know that i still have that big acorn you got from england. you remember? its still intact. you remember the numerous letters we shared? do you still remember me? if i fell on my knees and prayed everynight would things change? would you help me understand what went wrong? are you even proud of these memories which i treasure so? do you know that they happen to be fading away with each passing day? all that happiness is fading. and the pain has died. but the love. do you even have that little bit left for me? why do you push me to this small extent where i am spaceless. i cant move. i've been entrapped by you. i still have the key. remember the key you made for me? the only one which has the entrance to your heart? remember the late night conversations we used to have? we were standing at the crossroads and i remebered exactly how you left. and that moment when everything was over, i still remember myself holding on to you. but you were walking away. i know you won't be there; yet sometimes i wish i could call and talk.
please forgive me.
do you even know what im talking about? my birthday is in 2 days. do you remember? or are you striving to forget me and all about me? or maybe i don't exist in your life. but can you do it? can you truly move on without even a glimpse of me? can you live without your past? i can't. please answer all these questions. its been years but you still leave me hanging on to the ends of these threads.
please help me understand.
if i had another chance, i'd tell you how much i missed you since you went away. would you ever tell me you loved me? would you ever give that once so familiar hug? would you even listen if i told you i loved you?
please will you never forget me?
- everything's just temporary;
6:30 PM
